Mood: crazy
Yesterday was a major fat day.
Today is the first day this year I feel like I'm skivvying off my homework. Most times i want to and have something to blog about. And i try to make it meaningful. But today I'm just out of ideas.
I try to keep topics away from front page worthy news in my oh-so-dramatic life. But i suppose just this once, yesterdays events were worthy of recording.
Someone very close to me suffered from random laughing a few years back. He would burst out in laughter at random intervals. People around me would say he was just happy but i saw a pained expression behind his sunny exterior. This period in his life occurred a while after he lost his speech.
For about one year in my life, i never smiled. I know this because as i was flipping though a family album my face was as blank as an brand new canvas. I was a freaky child. I even remember that period in my life. It wasn't that i was emotionless, i just found nothing to smile about.
4 years ago, I felt the sudden urge to laugh at a funeral. I glanced at a friend and we both guffawed at the same time. We also both felt horrendous.
Yesterday, i watched Quarantine at a dinner party with my friends. I was in fits of hysteria afterward and decided to excuse myself to the bathroom. I entered into Bernard's pristine bathroom and did my business and then exited into complete darkness. Like a light switch in my head i knew that my friends were about to play a prank on me. I rushed back into the bathroom and flipped on the light switch only to turn around to find the bloody face of Justin greeting me. For the next half an hour, i had convulsed into involuntary fits of laughter. The kind where I'm actually crying more than i am laughing. But during those few thrilling moments of horror, and the uncontrollable, delirious mirth i felt a certain freedom that i had never felt before...
Perhaps i am going crazy after all.
Peace.
Sunday, February 28, 2010
Sunday, February 21, 2010
A Happy Disposition
What an interesting week it's been.
-i made and broke lent.
-i failed yet another math quiz
-3 people fell asleep on my bed
-vermillion concert
-i watched a free concert
-stayed up until 6 Thursday night
-became obsessed with the Mulberry Alexa bag in nude Adrienne showed me
-received my new prescription Ray Ban sunglasses
-got a spontaneous visit from my parents
-had boba
-temporarily revisited my journal
I've discovered that i have the most things to blog about on Wednesdays. I've also discovered that number theory lecture is the best time to brainstorm topics for my blog. What i need is to sit in number theory with a laptop ready to type away into my vivid and vast imagination. Wednesdays are also my adventure days where i wander into the university towne center, textbook in hand and wallet vulnerable. I would then browse around Trader Joes or the little Tokyo shop and meet fascinating people milling around everywhere. For example, this last wednesdays, when i made a visit to taco bell (and stupidly ordered a gastronomically unsound burrito), i met two screeching little blond girls. Their mother looked tired but still beautiful. I felt like she could've been the prom queen at her high school and the leader a.k.a queen B of "the popular crowd". She was probably the one everyone envied and the one everyone anticipated with baited breath would stumble publicly and be humiliated forever. She was one of those people whose classmates figured would probably go crazy in college where she'd be away from whatever dominant figure or expected reputation that held her wild side back in high school. They would then in satisfaction, be proven right when pictures of her drunken state appeared on the "where have THEY been, the class of 1994?" site.
But not blond babies mommy. She was here in taco bell purchasing cheese quesos for her two daughters and not screwing up her life.
But what do i know? what if she was knocked up and out popped blond baby number 1? I'd like to think the best in people.
Then i came across cashier boy while i was purchasing my container of cucumbers, shredded cheese and organic flour tortillas.
"HELLLOOOOO!" says cashier boy. In his enthusiasm, he tosses the organic flour tortillas about 6 feet up into the air allowing it to make approximately 9 completely revolutions before it comes straight back down into his hand. I excitedly greet him back.
"why hello, how are you today?"
"fantastic!!"
He flips the quarter i hand to him into the air. As if i needed to ask. Cashier boy is always happy and always flipping things into the air. I've seen him before. His happy disposition draws people and in my opinion, we need more Cashier boys in this world. He handed me some change in cash and proceeded to flip a brown paper bag into the air. After he catches it perfectly, shoves all of of my groceries in, and hands the bag to me, he wishes me a happy day. When i walk out of Trader Joe's, the weather is sunny outside and it feels like summer.
My week became better. Love everything around you this week!
Peace.
-i made and broke lent.
-i failed yet another math quiz
-3 people fell asleep on my bed
-vermillion concert
-i watched a free concert
-stayed up until 6 Thursday night
-became obsessed with the Mulberry Alexa bag in nude Adrienne showed me
-received my new prescription Ray Ban sunglasses
-got a spontaneous visit from my parents
-had boba
-temporarily revisited my journal
I've discovered that i have the most things to blog about on Wednesdays. I've also discovered that number theory lecture is the best time to brainstorm topics for my blog. What i need is to sit in number theory with a laptop ready to type away into my vivid and vast imagination. Wednesdays are also my adventure days where i wander into the university towne center, textbook in hand and wallet vulnerable. I would then browse around Trader Joes or the little Tokyo shop and meet fascinating people milling around everywhere. For example, this last wednesdays, when i made a visit to taco bell (and stupidly ordered a gastronomically unsound burrito), i met two screeching little blond girls. Their mother looked tired but still beautiful. I felt like she could've been the prom queen at her high school and the leader a.k.a queen B of "the popular crowd". She was probably the one everyone envied and the one everyone anticipated with baited breath would stumble publicly and be humiliated forever. She was one of those people whose classmates figured would probably go crazy in college where she'd be away from whatever dominant figure or expected reputation that held her wild side back in high school. They would then in satisfaction, be proven right when pictures of her drunken state appeared on the "where have THEY been, the class of 1994?" site.
But not blond babies mommy. She was here in taco bell purchasing cheese quesos for her two daughters and not screwing up her life.
But what do i know? what if she was knocked up and out popped blond baby number 1? I'd like to think the best in people.
Then i came across cashier boy while i was purchasing my container of cucumbers, shredded cheese and organic flour tortillas.
"HELLLOOOOO!" says cashier boy. In his enthusiasm, he tosses the organic flour tortillas about 6 feet up into the air allowing it to make approximately 9 completely revolutions before it comes straight back down into his hand. I excitedly greet him back.
"why hello, how are you today?"
"fantastic!!"
He flips the quarter i hand to him into the air. As if i needed to ask. Cashier boy is always happy and always flipping things into the air. I've seen him before. His happy disposition draws people and in my opinion, we need more Cashier boys in this world. He handed me some change in cash and proceeded to flip a brown paper bag into the air. After he catches it perfectly, shoves all of of my groceries in, and hands the bag to me, he wishes me a happy day. When i walk out of Trader Joe's, the weather is sunny outside and it feels like summer.
My week became better. Love everything around you this week!
Peace.
Saturday, February 20, 2010
Orchestra Time
Alicia: something's wrong with my eye. Its closing by itself!
Me: maybe you're about to get pink eye.
Chris: you get pink eye when someone farts on your pillow
Me: maybe you're about to get pink eye.
Chris: you get pink eye when someone farts on your pillow
Sunday, February 14, 2010
Love Is In The Air
mood: loving
I had the most amazing day yesterday. After a frantic and horrendous week, ending it yesterday with Darius possibly made everything 10 times better.
Monday my period came and i dreaded the pain that would soon come.
Tuesday went by blindly in a blur of panicked studying, disarray and uncomfortable procrastinating.
On Wednesday i came out of my last midterm feeling horrible (contrary to how i felt for my other two midterms). I had planned a nice day for myself after my last midterm. It should have went: Treat myself to a nice lunch at veggie grill and do homework while sitting peacefully outside, practice cello for the first time in ages, return and head out to the gym and then relax for the rest of the night. What actually happened was that of course veggie grill was way too crowded and i no longer had the desire to dine there. I then headed towards to the practice rooms only to discover that they were all full. I waited around until someone did leave and i occupied with music only to feel hopeless about 15 minutes later. After not practicing for so long, i felt like i sucked miserably at cello and gave up. I headed towards the bus and bought myself a small bag of kettle corn from the vendor fair on ring road to cheer myself up. As people streamed out of the bus when it arrived, i stupidly dropped my bad of kettle corn spilling its contents everywhere. When i finally got home i slept for approximately 5 hours to rid myself of all the bad feelings only to wake up to face a mountainous pile of homework.
Thursday followed just as badly. i received my midterm score confirming my bad feeling about it. But things finally started to look up and my day as well as week got better towards the end.
Friday, several of us got together to celebrate Justin's birthday and the package containing a sony dsc w290 camera, that had been sitting in my room for about 3 weeks finally made its way into the hands of its owner. Happy Birthday buddy!
Then yesterday, Helen and Michael and I journeyed up to LA where Darius and i were reunited. I had an amazing day at Little Tokyo and Melrose. I snagged Darius's ice cream mochi virginity. He kept informing me that it tasted amazing and it did. We browsed around all day meandering from Sanrio shops to designer stores. Then for dinner the four of us dined at a romantic little restaurant called Taste located in the heart of Melrose. It was delicious!
Anyways, now it is Valentines day and i am reflecting on all the people i love: My parentals and family , my friends and of course my one and only love and first love Darius. The world is in harmony once more and it's so great how some things in life are just soooo wonderful!
I hope you all have had a nice Valentines day <3
peace!
I had the most amazing day yesterday. After a frantic and horrendous week, ending it yesterday with Darius possibly made everything 10 times better.
Monday my period came and i dreaded the pain that would soon come.
Tuesday went by blindly in a blur of panicked studying, disarray and uncomfortable procrastinating.
On Wednesday i came out of my last midterm feeling horrible (contrary to how i felt for my other two midterms). I had planned a nice day for myself after my last midterm. It should have went: Treat myself to a nice lunch at veggie grill and do homework while sitting peacefully outside, practice cello for the first time in ages, return and head out to the gym and then relax for the rest of the night. What actually happened was that of course veggie grill was way too crowded and i no longer had the desire to dine there. I then headed towards to the practice rooms only to discover that they were all full. I waited around until someone did leave and i occupied with music only to feel hopeless about 15 minutes later. After not practicing for so long, i felt like i sucked miserably at cello and gave up. I headed towards the bus and bought myself a small bag of kettle corn from the vendor fair on ring road to cheer myself up. As people streamed out of the bus when it arrived, i stupidly dropped my bad of kettle corn spilling its contents everywhere. When i finally got home i slept for approximately 5 hours to rid myself of all the bad feelings only to wake up to face a mountainous pile of homework.
Thursday followed just as badly. i received my midterm score confirming my bad feeling about it. But things finally started to look up and my day as well as week got better towards the end.
Friday, several of us got together to celebrate Justin's birthday and the package containing a sony dsc w290 camera, that had been sitting in my room for about 3 weeks finally made its way into the hands of its owner. Happy Birthday buddy!
Then yesterday, Helen and Michael and I journeyed up to LA where Darius and i were reunited. I had an amazing day at Little Tokyo and Melrose. I snagged Darius's ice cream mochi virginity. He kept informing me that it tasted amazing and it did. We browsed around all day meandering from Sanrio shops to designer stores. Then for dinner the four of us dined at a romantic little restaurant called Taste located in the heart of Melrose. It was delicious!
Anyways, now it is Valentines day and i am reflecting on all the people i love: My parentals and family , my friends and of course my one and only love and first love Darius. The world is in harmony once more and it's so great how some things in life are just soooo wonderful!
I hope you all have had a nice Valentines day <3
peace!
Thursday, February 11, 2010
Tuesday, February 9, 2010
formspring.me
What is one thing you would never change about yourself?
This question is difficult. Also difficult to believe, is that i would never change anything about myself. Not even my short stubby legs or my huge ass. I think everyone has their flaws and drawbacks whether physically, mentally, emotionally and i certainly have a fair share of them as well. However the main reason why i wouldn't change anything about myself, is because i just wouldn't be the same person anymore. For example, if my legs were suddenly longer, the insecurities i have built up over my entire lifetime would vanish leaving a whole array of OTHER possible characteristics i could've developed. What if i turned out to be absurdly insufferable? So you see, i wouldn't have me any other way.
...and i guess if you really just want ONE thing: my sense of humor
Sunday, February 7, 2010
Pedicure On My Toes Toes
Mood: Girly
A few days ago i boarded the bus after my midterm along with six other manly man boys. We settled ourselves down in individual seats as the bus driver (a girl) pulled away from the curb. The radio overhead ended the current song and began another. I looked around at all the somber expressions on the boys faces and actually burst out laughing. I then wondered how violated their manliness felt for the song playing was tik tok by Kei$ha.
Right before i reached the bus stop i passed by CDL acapella's stand on ring road. They were selling chocolate covered strawberries and in my good mood i bought a few. They unfreakingexpectedly tasted much more amazing than they should have.
Last night, my roommate Marika and i compared actresses and tried categorizing them all in one of 5 groups: Cute, Pretty, Sexy, Beautiful, Elegant/Classy. For example:
Audrey Tautou: Cute
Alessandra Ambrosio: Sexy
Koyuki: Beautiful
Leighton Meester: Pretty/cute
Cate Blanchett: Elegant/Classy
Then we stayed up talking about our boyfriends. I told Marika about how Darius and i met and how we came together. We both giggled endlessly into the night like two children and we went to sleep content after a well deserved and missed girly time.
I miss Darius! But i will be seeing him in a week as Valentines day approaches. Until then i'll be occupying myself with boring things such as studying.
Peace.
A few days ago i boarded the bus after my midterm along with six other manly man boys. We settled ourselves down in individual seats as the bus driver (a girl) pulled away from the curb. The radio overhead ended the current song and began another. I looked around at all the somber expressions on the boys faces and actually burst out laughing. I then wondered how violated their manliness felt for the song playing was tik tok by Kei$ha.
Right before i reached the bus stop i passed by CDL acapella's stand on ring road. They were selling chocolate covered strawberries and in my good mood i bought a few. They unfreakingexpectedly tasted much more amazing than they should have.
Last night, my roommate Marika and i compared actresses and tried categorizing them all in one of 5 groups: Cute, Pretty, Sexy, Beautiful, Elegant/Classy. For example:
Audrey Tautou: Cute
Alessandra Ambrosio: Sexy
Koyuki: Beautiful
Leighton Meester: Pretty/cute
Cate Blanchett: Elegant/Classy
Then we stayed up talking about our boyfriends. I told Marika about how Darius and i met and how we came together. We both giggled endlessly into the night like two children and we went to sleep content after a well deserved and missed girly time.
I miss Darius! But i will be seeing him in a week as Valentines day approaches. Until then i'll be occupying myself with boring things such as studying.
Peace.
Monday, February 1, 2010
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