Mood: somewhat determined
The answer i gave everyone this week when asked "how was your spring break" was: "too short."
Aside from jury duty (in which i didn't even fulfill because i postponed it), i visited the dentist and was my mothers slave. I didn't even see my high school friends or spend decent quality time with anyone except for Helen (for barely an hour and a half) and Darius who i made my number one priority last week. And even for that felt like there there was no adequate time allotted. Now i am back at school bracing myself for yet another quarter of studying and boredom.
I've decided to set a few absurd but necessary (in my opinion) goals which i will enforce starting now:
1) budget for the quarter: $25
I KNOW WHAT YOU'RE ALL THINKING. Impossible. BUT not really. Last year, Darius told me that he spent a total of something like $20 for the entire fall quarter. And that $20 was spent on one night when he went out to dinner with his friends. AND even that was with the help of my insisting that he went out to do more stuff. So really, if it weren't for me, he would've spent zero dollars that quarter....in fact if it weren't for me, he would probably spend zero dollars ever. Now that i think about it, if it weren't for me, Darius would be a rich rich man.
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I am a terrible influence. ANYWAYS, my point is that it IS possible. At first i was going to say spend zero dollars, however i felt that was unnecessarily harsh on myself and that it might lead me into starvation. This is going to be a cheap and frugal quarter!
2) To gym it up at least twice a week (more is preferrable). As summer time IS coming around, i must start to think about the future! Since i am unwilling to give up food, i have decided to enforce a stricter exercise plan. Of course you may hardly dare to believe that i and making this a goal for any other reason than this, but exercising acts as a brilliant tranquilizer after a stressful day and so really, I'm also doing this for my health.
3) get good grades. All i want to do at the end of quarter, is look at my end of the quarter report and not experience an unpleasant feeling in the pit of my stomach. This is straightforward enough right?
My guidelines for this quarter have been established. Time to crack down on it...
peace
Wednesday, March 31, 2010
Wednesday, March 24, 2010
Unexcitement
I KNOW I KNOW. i know i failed to post last week.
Truthfully i forgot although that's hard to believe. Many including myself would be more prone to believe that by "forgetting" i really meant that i had purposely pushed this homework assignment towards the back of my head.
Anyways, after a crazy finals week, it is now spring break. I can't help be feel jealous of everyone who is off having real live adventures on their own this week. My neighbor is doing bigger and better things in New York and having the time of his life I'm sure. My cousin came back today after a fun and exciting trip to Virginia visiting her friend. My roommate chose Mexico as her destination this week and is currently probably strolling down some stinky market or getting reprimanded by some Mexican police. The point is, i am sitting here sleeping for 12 hours a day and eating/watching tv the other 12 hours while longing to be somewhere else. My greatest adventure so far had been journeying alone downtown via bus in order to attend jury duty which i was excused from in the end because i would be unable to serve for any longer than two days which is shorter than the shortest trial. Anyways they postponed it yet again till summer and my trip downtown was rendered meaningless.
i have nothing to say in todays post, no thoughts to contribute, no wise words of wisdom to share. I have seen Darius a lot this week but all we did was play the "soo....what do YOU want to do?" game.
Hopefully things will be more exciting as the week progresses. But for now, i will have to entertain myself. Television and sleep here we go!
Peace.
Truthfully i forgot although that's hard to believe. Many including myself would be more prone to believe that by "forgetting" i really meant that i had purposely pushed this homework assignment towards the back of my head.
Anyways, after a crazy finals week, it is now spring break. I can't help be feel jealous of everyone who is off having real live adventures on their own this week. My neighbor is doing bigger and better things in New York and having the time of his life I'm sure. My cousin came back today after a fun and exciting trip to Virginia visiting her friend. My roommate chose Mexico as her destination this week and is currently probably strolling down some stinky market or getting reprimanded by some Mexican police. The point is, i am sitting here sleeping for 12 hours a day and eating/watching tv the other 12 hours while longing to be somewhere else. My greatest adventure so far had been journeying alone downtown via bus in order to attend jury duty which i was excused from in the end because i would be unable to serve for any longer than two days which is shorter than the shortest trial. Anyways they postponed it yet again till summer and my trip downtown was rendered meaningless.
i have nothing to say in todays post, no thoughts to contribute, no wise words of wisdom to share. I have seen Darius a lot this week but all we did was play the "soo....what do YOU want to do?" game.
Hopefully things will be more exciting as the week progresses. But for now, i will have to entertain myself. Television and sleep here we go!
Peace.
Sunday, March 14, 2010
The Bubonic Plague
Mood: huh?
Zombies everywhere.
Complaints of lack of sleep.
Procrastination at its prime.
Horrendous disorientation of time.
Facebook status updates sky rocket.
No logical distinction of day and night.
The world is an unpleasant shade of gray.
Medical remains lie at the edge of my desk.
Dazed peers blithely bumping along ring road.
Flannel, sweaters and sweatpants worn for days.
Fingers flying furiously over a keyboard in complaint.
Music blasting away the functionality in the ear for hours.
Pimples sprouting invariably from personal hygiene neglect.
Papers pile around me in heaps reaping undeserved attention.
All i smell is the dirty layer of grime covering my unwashed hair.
Facial hair elongating freely on the faces of the filthy male population.
Residues of instant miso soup and roasted gorgonzola flavored oven chips gather in my stomach.
Personalities shot with no sense of individuality.
My college ass feels screwed.
Finals is upon us all....like a plague.
peace.
Zombies everywhere.
Complaints of lack of sleep.
Procrastination at its prime.
Horrendous disorientation of time.
Facebook status updates sky rocket.
No logical distinction of day and night.
The world is an unpleasant shade of gray.
Medical remains lie at the edge of my desk.
Dazed peers blithely bumping along ring road.
Flannel, sweaters and sweatpants worn for days.
Fingers flying furiously over a keyboard in complaint.
Music blasting away the functionality in the ear for hours.
Pimples sprouting invariably from personal hygiene neglect.
Papers pile around me in heaps reaping undeserved attention.
All i smell is the dirty layer of grime covering my unwashed hair.
Facial hair elongating freely on the faces of the filthy male population.
Residues of instant miso soup and roasted gorgonzola flavored oven chips gather in my stomach.
Personalities shot with no sense of individuality.
My college ass feels screwed.
Finals is upon us all....like a plague.
peace.
Sunday, March 7, 2010
Beauty in The Breakdown
Mood: sudden panic
My weekend:
*Dinner parties
*Back rubs
*Burger, fries and fizzy drinks
*Chocolate covered strawberries
*Cadbury eggs
*Scary movies
*friends
*math and mechanics
*Strolling
*Greasy and delicious pizza
*Tokyo lifestyle
*frou frou: let go "love me if you dare"
*Spending it with Darius, the coolest most amazing person
This past Wednesday, I wandered into UTC and bought udon noodles. There was an hour to kill before i had to meet up with someone. I sat in the student center and recorded this down in my math notes:
Three brothers sit to the right of me in the student center. Little do they know the girl in the denim jacket quietly sipping her udon noodles is eavesdropping in on their conversation.
I am Harriet the Spy.
Somehow, listening to them talk makes me feel a sense of disconnection. They guy with the hoodie is me. The guy with the glasses and button up shirt is Helen and the guy sitting directly across from both of them is pastor Dalon or Aunt Eva or someone with some leadership responsibility.
And now here i am, private anonymous observer. They probably know I'm observing them and I'm bettering they are purposely cranking up the volume a notch in their voices. I feel them converting me: a believer already and i wonder why we as Christians will never fit in.
These guys will soon get up and leave with a sense of higher enlightenment with the world obliviously mulling around them. They will leave me here with a sense of un-fulfillment and confusion.
They will only brush off the ridicule of what would most likely be if it weren't ME sitting here. I should be hoodie boy, stepping up for my beliefs rather than just being lukewarm and unpleasant. What am i waiting for?
The week of intense torture approaches. I hate the looming feeling of finals just around the corner.
Peace on earth.
My weekend:
*Dinner parties
*Back rubs
*Burger, fries and fizzy drinks
*Chocolate covered strawberries
*Cadbury eggs
*Scary movies
*friends
*math and mechanics
*Strolling
*Greasy and delicious pizza
*Tokyo lifestyle
*frou frou: let go "love me if you dare"
*Spending it with Darius, the coolest most amazing person
This past Wednesday, I wandered into UTC and bought udon noodles. There was an hour to kill before i had to meet up with someone. I sat in the student center and recorded this down in my math notes:
Three brothers sit to the right of me in the student center. Little do they know the girl in the denim jacket quietly sipping her udon noodles is eavesdropping in on their conversation.
I am Harriet the Spy.
Somehow, listening to them talk makes me feel a sense of disconnection. They guy with the hoodie is me. The guy with the glasses and button up shirt is Helen and the guy sitting directly across from both of them is pastor Dalon or Aunt Eva or someone with some leadership responsibility.
And now here i am, private anonymous observer. They probably know I'm observing them and I'm bettering they are purposely cranking up the volume a notch in their voices. I feel them converting me: a believer already and i wonder why we as Christians will never fit in.
These guys will soon get up and leave with a sense of higher enlightenment with the world obliviously mulling around them. They will leave me here with a sense of un-fulfillment and confusion.
They will only brush off the ridicule of what would most likely be if it weren't ME sitting here. I should be hoodie boy, stepping up for my beliefs rather than just being lukewarm and unpleasant. What am i waiting for?
The week of intense torture approaches. I hate the looming feeling of finals just around the corner.
Peace on earth.
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