Relief

Mood: Good

This is the first time in a long time that I've had true alone time. It was nice at first. My roommate and good friend was off in Davis doing their band thing, another friend was in norcal as well, a bunch of acapella friends were in D.C. for some choir thing, Darius couldn't come down because of a volunteering event, and wellp, that about all the people I hang out with on the weekends.

I spent my Friday night meandering around the Spectrum. I bought myself a nice strawberry pastry from the little French patisserie I love so much and sipped water contained in a clear cup. Under the shade on a bench I read Harry Potter on my kindle and enjoyed the scene of children, senior citizens, pets and lovers walk by. Later when it started getting dark I bought myself take-out pizza from CPK with a gift card and then went home to watch south park.

Saturday i woke up early to stoll around the farmers market. I bought a bag of oranges, three avacados and kettle corn. i did my usual Saturday stuff and by the time dinner rolled around i was feeling lonely. Out of nowhere Scotty texts and asks when we should have dinner! My friends here to save me from wallowing in misery (: It turned out Sara Wang was in the neighborhood too and we had a nice dinner and talked like old times.

Today I did lots of homework and browsed around shops in Costa Mesa. I had dinner again with old friends (Sara, Monica and Emy). While we were standing in line for 85 degrees bread, I laughed to the point my stomach hurt and I couldn't breathe. This is the first time in a while that i laughed to the point of pain. It felt good. Only these girls could do that to me so easily.

I'm glad to know I have friends out there who unknowingly bring me out of loneliness. I'm glad that i actually want to be with them. The most amazing thing about them is that even though i may not have seen them in a while, like Sara, i don't feel awkward and we still have things to talk about. I just have to say....I'm pretty darn lucky.