can those who actually read my blog somehow give me their blog's name/site again? I've tried about 50 million combinations of what i thought the name of the blog was and only found dissapointment. gracias!
hah...i keep forgetting i have this site. sorry i havntbeen posting lately ):
and now for the real post:
Within the last week, i had been asked the dreadful question twice. Once was during english where we had to determine who in our group had the most siblings. Whoever DID have the most siblings was given the punishment of retrieving our literature books. The other time was during chem. I don't recall exactly what led up to the point when i was asked the dreadful question, but i do remember how uneasy i felt. "What is the dreadful question?" one asks. Here it is:
"How many siblings do you have?"
This question wasnt so dreaful a few years ago. I was able to give one straight, truthful answer. "I have one brother." There would be no confusion, no puzzlement, no nore questions. But that's not the case now.
I have 2 options.
1) Say I'm and only child and deny all accusations of "didnt you have a brother?"
2) Say i HAD a brother, and suffer having to explain an uncomfortable ordeal.
What do i do? What am i SUPPOSE to do? For me there's guilt involved in both options. Option number one makes me guilty becuase i would be denying i ever had a brother. Option number two makes me feel guilty for creating awkward tension. Most of the time i chose option one. Sorry bro, but it usually leads to fewer questions.
During this week however, option number one did NOT lead to fewer questions. Both groups of people i chose this option on shot me shady looks of disbelief. "Didnt you have a brother?"
darn...
I'm not even sure where i'm going with this post. i feel so blaaah.
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I don't know exactly how you feel about this but, I'll try my best to respond accordingly.
I'm glad that you still honor your brother; you inspire me to be a little better with my own.
And as for the (lazy, slothful, stupid...I can go on and on) individuals who decide to pick the person to grab literature books by asking such a lame question can all go chew on tree bark (Dunno where that came from. It sounded cool...).
Also, I don't think you're "denying" your brother per say when you say "o, I don't have a brother." That statement, in itself, is just...a statement which holds essence of truth. However, it says nothing about your love and commitment to him. Besides, (I'm assuming the people in your group are strangers/acquaintances?...) they don't need to know everything about you if you don't feel like giving parts of yourself up. You are you and even though honoring you brother is awesome, don't forget that the price to pay isn't necessarily your personal memories.
I don't know where I'm going with this comment. It almost feels weird for me to write about this; I don't know if it's my place. I apologize in advance if it isn't...
I think the bottom lines are to a)honor your bro lots and lots b)answer the question and c) know that, in your heart, your brother is your brother to you; nobody else needs to think of him otherwise. In all honesty, who cares what they think?
Ugh. I'm sorry if that didn't make any sense at all...I hope it helps a little bit...
And please do write more. I enjoy reading peoples' blogs :)
<3, Helen.
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